Creepin’ on this Tumblr that I don’t really use anymore. Realizing I’m around the same weight… Definitely not happy.

To those who have still stuck around- thank you. I know I was never really posting regularly on this blog and I completely fell off the face of the planet all of a sudden. But for those who care, I’ve been doing great on my journey and I’ve taken baby steps.

My absence from this community may surprise you. I left because instead of feeling motivated to get a better body, I felt more self-conscious than ever. And somewhere along the line of a healthy lifestyle I lost myself and was so close to something extremely unhealthy. I would come on here and suddenly feel the urge to throw up that cookie I worked hard for or ignore the hunger pangs that haunted me after a few hours without food. And that’s not what this is community is about. This community is about hard work, good diet, and a great workout. But that’s not what my mind connected every time I would log in on here. I felt so pressured to lose weight that I started eating to compensate for the emotional drain it would cause me.

I’ll be coming back very soon. This time with a new mentality and a better work ethic than ever. We’ll be reunited again!

I know I’ve been MIA for a while and I apologize. But school is already kicking my butt. This isn’t goodbye. It’s just a seen you soon. I haven’t completely stopped losing weight even though I have put it on the back burner. Plan to get started again tonight and make it more of a regular thing because it deffo hasn’t been lately.

I hope you lovely fitblrs are doing well <3

Just had to let you guys know that I bought a pair of jeans a size smaller the other day and my friend that I hadn’t seen in about a year said “did you get skinnier!?”

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